Today I feel very down. I feel like I’m depressed all the sudden and I don’t know why. God how I wish you were here to keep me company. Right now it’s just me and my remote control. I just wish you were here. I need you today. 

This morning I woke up with nothing to eat for breakfast. Didn’t really feel like making eggs again. So I went on the treadmill and then went to stop and shop. I felt more scared then ever, I didn’t want to touch anything even the food I was buying. And then I thought about you. How you are dealing with this situation. Are you afraid? Are you scared? Are you locked in your house with nothing to eat?

So I have a three bedroom apartment and my kids have their own rooms but they rather sleep in my room. Don’t worry future husband when you arrive I will be kicking them out our master bedroom. But it got me wondering about how you will feel about the situation.

I know you are waiting for me, I look out the window and I think of you. I think about how you will look, what color your eyes will be. How your skin will feel when we touch. My husband the one I will connect with. The only one who will be able to read my mind. Dear future husband do you look out the window and think of me?

So today I signed up for match.com hit the like button a couple times and I still didn’t find you. I will keep trying to find you my love.

Will you love my body how it is? With three children I was left with tiger stripes on my stomach, my thighs, and my breasts. Will you Love me still?

Today is April 5th I feel alone. When will you arrive to scope me up and make me smile? I feel like I have been waiting forever.🙏

Thanks for joining me!

Good company in a journey makes the way seem shorter. — Izaak Walton